And here I thought you couldn’t make me cry anymore. What the FUCK is wrong with you? And more importantly, what the FUCK is wrong with ME? I can’t change the past. I can’t make the memories go away. I can’t give you your youth back. I can’t take away all the words I said. I can’t undo all the things I did. Just let it be. What else do you want me to say? What else do you want me to do? I already admitted all my mistakes. I already told you all the things I should’ve done. But right now, none of this matters. I lost your trust long ago, this I know. But you had my love all along and for what? To make you feel better? FUCK you. You call yourself my friend but you’re a drug, a horrible drug. I don’t see the day I cut myself completely away from you. You’re the only one who’s ever been capable of driving me towards insanity. I don’t want to go back to that. Please don’t remind me of the demon that lurks inside me. I just want to be happy. I know I’m not perfect but even monsters need love. I was young, stupid and I fucked up. I’m sorry. But let’s be adults now and move on.
And sometimes I wonder if he still misses me. But then I remember all the times I cried and convince myself I never deserved him in the first place.
Night falls and whatever sleep I had simply fades away.
We are stardust moving about in the universe
We are nothing and everything in the microcosm
Trapped in a world living under a curse
Tiny little specks lingering in the macrocosm
No puedo cambiar el pasado
Pero puedo hacer un futuro
No me digas lo que hice mal
Ya no lo puedo arreglar
Disculpa mis indiscreciones
No fueron mis intenciones
No puedo cambiar tu mente
Pero ya todo es diferente
No tengo más nada que demostrar
Porque por ti ya no voy a llorar